Just the fact that you’re able to carry a smile on your face when your whole body feels tense and apprehensive, is a sign of strength. You might not even know it, and you might refuse to believe that you’re brave, but trust me, you are.
You’re coping with your anxiety as best you can, so please be gentle with your soul. I bet you didn’t know that your best would be considered and unbearable, monumental task to someone who doesn’t have to deal with anxiety on a daily basis. You’re a courageous, sweet and beautiful soul who happens to suffer from fear, apprehension and irrational thoughts, so please believe that you’re so much more than you’re anxiety.
Yes, more often than not, you have to come face to face with all the fears that you mind constructs and spits at your soul, but you fight back. You put on a smile and at the same time try to talk yourself out of the darkness in your mind by doing your best at being rational, after all, it’s your best weapon against irrational thoughts. Sometimes you win, other times anxiety might consume you, but you know it’s temporary and you never give up fighting for a quiet mind.
You know at your core that you’re resilient, so you put a smile on your face and you fight your anxiety back with all you’ve got, because you know in your heart that your inner-beauty supersedes the chaos in your mind.
On the surface you might have to fake it until you make it and there’s nothing wrong with that. When you’re struggling inside but you appear collected on the outside you’re just saying ‘not today’ to your anxiety.
Hiding your anxiety is not just to show the world the best possible version of you, you’re also coping and finding the best way for you to navigate a world that isn’t so easy to live in. You have the right to feel comfortable in your own skin no matter where you are, considering the constant doubts and false perceptions your anxiety feeds you.
You have the power to stop your anxiety from defining who you are, so allow your heart to guide you in the right direction. Because your heart only wants to express the beauty in you, the real you.
“The largest part of what we call ‘personality’ is determined by how we’ve opted to defend ourselves against anxiety and sadness.” ~Alain de Botton